Amerika’da calisirken kiz kardesinle ayni evde yasiyorsan olabilecekler:

Gun ortasinda arayip “kuru kayisi ne demek?” diye bir soruyla calisma ritminin ortasina olanca agirligiyla dusebilir..

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adopt adapt and improve

motto of the round table.


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Darwin's Dilemma

“…Darwin had been invited to be a naturalist aboard H.M.S. Beagle on its two year survey of South America. The ship was to set sail on 25 September. He immediately accepted the offer, but his father and sisters were totally against the idea. They saw it as a continuation of Darwin'

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s long line of idle pursuits. Worst of all, such a journey would get in the way of Darwin going into the clergy…”

dude. it was majorly in the way of -going into the clergy.


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bm aftermath

Burning Man in ozelligi icinde inanilmaz seyler barindirmasi degil. Sonucta Disneyland de oyle. Hatta icinde yurudugunuz bir agaclik bile oyle. Agaclarin kusursuz tasarimina, bir kurbaganin rengine ya da calilarin arasindan cikan bir cicegin kontrastina BM de gordugumuz bir art car’dan daha fazla hayran olmamiz gerek. Ama Burning Man in ozelligi icinde bu art car’lari, giysileri, bisikletleri yapan, seven insanlari da bulundurmasi ve bu insanlarin Burning Man e interaktiviteye hazir bir halde gelmeleri. 7 gun inanilmaz zor kosullar altinda yasayan Burning Man sakinleri isinan bir elementteki atomlarin birbirlerine carpismasi gibi bir interaktiviteye giriyorlar ve iste bu yuzden pazartesi baslayan event cuma, cumartesi, pazar inanilmaz boyutlara variyor.
O kadar mutlu oldum ki bir ara kader olmemi gerektiricek gibi geldi.



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los angeles reno

turkish et– abi los angeles reno nevada arasi 610 mil mis. nasil gideriz nasil yapariz?
moody – muzigimiz var mi arabada calicak?
turkish et – evet var bayagi bisey
moody – ha tamam o zaman

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Sema, the Universal Movement

It is scientifically recognized that the fundamental condition of our existence is to revolve. There is no being or object which does not revolve, because all beings are comprised of revolving electrons, protons, and neutrons in atoms. Everything revolves, and the human being lives by means of the revolution of these particles, by the revolution of the blood in his body, and by the revolution of the stages of his life, by his coming from the earth and his returning to it.

In the symbolism of the Sema ritual, the semazen’s camel’s hair hat (sikke) represents the tombstone of the ego; his wide, white skirt represents the ego’s shroud. By removing his black cloak, he is spiritually reborn to the truth. At the beginning of the Sema, by holding his arms crosswise, the semazen appears to represent the number one, thus testifying to God’s unity. While whirling, his arms are open: his right arm is directed to the sky, ready to receive God’s beneficence; his left hand, upon which his eyes are fastened, is turned toward the earth. The semazen conveys God’s spiritual gift to those who are witnessing the Sema. Revolving from right to left around the heart, the semazen embraces all humanity with love. The human being has been created with love in order to love. Mevlâna Jalâluddîn Rumi says, “All loves are a bridge to Divine love. Yet, those who have not had a taste of it do not know!”

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Psyche and Joseph Campbell and Burning Man


The Psyche of Carl Jung

The Swiss psychologist, C. G. Jung, taught that the human mind or psyche is complex and is composed of parts, much like the physical body. He coined the word “complexes” for various unconscious parts of the psyche. Complexes are the focal and nodal points of psychic life (Jacobi, 1973, p. 37). He also divided the unconscious into two distinct regions, the personal and the collective. “Whereas the personal unconscious consists for the most part of complexes, the content of the collective unconscious is made up essentially of archetypes” (Jung, 1990, p. 42).

In Jungian phraseology, the ego itself is a complex. It is the complex that is the subject of consciousness (Jacobi, 1973, p. 7). Jung also taught that the stability of the ego is relative, and far-reaching changes of personality can and do occur. These need not be pathological; they are sometimes developmental (Jung, 1978, p. 6).

The unconscious, the inner ‘environment’ of the psyche, is a different medium from the conscious. There is usually not much change in the near-to-conscious areas because of the rapid alternation between light and shadow. Jung (1973) calls this fluid area a “no man’s land” and designates it as the personal unconscious (p. 97).

A simplified model of the ego and the unconscious is shown in Figure 4. Behind the personal unconscious lies the collective unconscious which contain the archetypes. The archetypes represent the structure of a “psychic world” whose reality is seen through its effects on the conscious mind (Jacobi, 1973, p. 37). From the foregoing we can write the equality:

archetypes = psychic attractors

Phase space is the state space of a system, a mathematical abstract space used to visualize the evolution of a dynamic system (Nicolis and Prigogine, 1989). The phase space of a human being has not yet been defined mathematically, but life itself can be envisioned as a human phase space with time plotted along the x axis. Such a plot would begin at birth and end with death as a fixed attractor.

The structure of the psyche is similar to that of the physical body. According to Jung, “the archetypes are the organs of the prerational psyche” (Jacobi, 1973, p. 46). Archetypes are structures, not images. They allow for the periodic creation and dissolution of images. The archetypes have a hierarchical order. The “primary” archetypes are those that cannot be further reduced. The next in line are the “children” or “secondary” archetypes. Then come the “grandchildren” or “tertiary” until we come to those which are closest to consciousness and which have the least intensity, meaning, and numinosity or energy charge (Jacobi, 1973, p. 56).

The psyche, as a macroscopic system, can remain predictable and stable even when its main subsystem, the ego, is unstable. When the ego enters basins of instability, its trajectory through phase space becomes uncertain and multiple possibilities or accessible states become available to it. In this way, the healthy ego grows and matures in individual ways over time by learning from personal experience. If an archetypal (chaotic) attractor encountered in phase space cannot be assimilated, unhealthy states can develop. According to Jung (1990), various forms of insanity can result from the failure to assimilate such encounters.

Figure 5 shows a more complicated model. Here the center of the psyche is the self, balanced by the ego and shadow. This model illustrates the open nature of Jung’s view of the psyche. At the conscious end, the persona acts as a filter for the ego to the external

world, while at the unconscious end, the archetype of the anima-animus acts as a filter to the collective unconscious.  Figures 4 and 5 are elaborations of models presented by Jacobi (1973) and illustrate the complex dynamic nature of the psyche as defined by Jung.

Jung’s psyche functions with circular causality. The central archetype of the psyche is the self which, together with the ego, determine the order parameters of the entire psyche (biases, dispositions, likes and dislikes, values, and so on). These parameters then determine the behavior of the ego and self. The behavior of the ego can be determined from personality characteristics and traits (Jung, 1971). The behavior of the self can be determined from dreams (Jung, 1974).



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the rides

The Rides

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Moody Travel

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song 2027*(T): (non-stop)

New York-Kennedy, NY (JFK) > Los Angeles, CA (LAX)

9:45pm, Friday 26 Aug 2005

12:40am, Saturday 27 Aug 2005

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Phoenix, AZ
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katharsis and explanation attempt on the struggle of life through copy pasting

This kind of interpretation has reached a new posi-
tion through later psychology. Arthur Schopenhauer,
Friedrich Nietzsche, and Sigmund Freud have shown
how pleasure and pain are connected with each
other—in the way Plato and René Dubos have pointed
out—and that men do not act to sacrifice pleasure
according to the pleasure principle of hedonism. In
fact, Schopenhauer, Nietzsche, and Freud insist that
men desire to take risks, to be shocked, to suffer pain,
not in order to obtain pleasure subsequently. Of course,
the actual uses of tragedies—writing of new tragedies
and stage directing and interpreting old tragedies—
have been biased by this change of psychology.

wikipedia– Catharsis is a sudden emotional breakdown or climax that constitutes overwhelming feelings of great pity, sorrow, laughter, or any extreme change in emotion that results in the renewal, restoration and revitalization for living.

Catharsis is a form of emotional cleansing first defined by the Greek philosopher Aristotle. It originally referred to the sensation that would ideally overcome an audience upon finishing a tragedy. The fact that there existed those who could suffer a worse fate than them was to them a relief, and at the end of the play, they felt ekstasis (literally, astonishment), from which the modern word ecstasy is derived. While seemingly related to schadenfreude, it is not, however, in the sense that the audience is not intentionally led to feel happy in light of others’ misfortunes; in an invariant sense, their spirits are refreshed through having greater appreciation for life.

The term catharsis has been adopted by modern psychotherapy to describe the act of giving expression to deep emotions often associated with events in the individuals past which have never before been adequately expressed. –

Catharsis and Productive Futility
In the absence of concrete gains one is more readily prone to turn toward metaphysical implications of the witnessed act. The artist has attained no object at the other end of the task , so what has been achieved? Of foundational importance is the actual labor engaged in the performance. There is a certain transcendent purpose to be deduced from this obtuse procedure. By engagement of the gesture the artist has experienced a phenomenon from which his perception will have changed from when the act was first initiated. What is accomplished is a sort of catharsis, wherein the artist, the art and its audience experiences a more focused consciousness of what the act of producing work, and living life, entails. This altered perception of experience is the benefit of the action, an abstract reward. In a manner of speaking, these banal endeavors embody what shall be hereafter
referred to as a condition of productive futility. Whereas the immediate action provides no material object, the individual’s achievement lies in the expanded understanding of endeavor and, ideally, knowledge of the self.

The notion of a transformative effect known as katharsis is rooted in Aristotle’s Poetics, chapter 6 in which purification of the emotions results from vicarious experience, especially through an encounter with theatrical drama; tragedy in particular. The term itself originates from the Greek language definition, meaning literally a cleansing or purging. (3) In Aristotle’s
view, a performance is effective because of the work’s hamartia, or tragic flaw attributed to the work’s protagonist. Empathy with the character in the performance arises from pity and fear. Pity is the emotion felt toward the portrayed when that someone suffers an undeserved misfortune. Fear comes about from the realization that the performer resembles oneself.

Let us consider these properties in relation to the work of To What End? where the hamartia is most evident in From One Place to the Next. Calderwood’s misfortune is that there is nothing on the opposite end of the wall once he’s reached the other side. The effort put into getting there is ostensibly moot, a waste of time and energy. His flaw is the presumption that one side will be better than the other, that he will be more satisfied with life and himself for having completed the task of arriving from one place to another.

Of the various interpretations of katharsis theory, the cognitive view is most relevant to Calderwood. Rather than the purgation or purification stances that advocate more traditional approaches declaring medical and moral outcomes of catharsis, the cognitive view suggests that the function of catharsis is in providing clarification for having been through the act’s experience. (4) It is an intellectual and emotional effect in which the spectator is made aware of one’s own desire for the expression and revealing of personal significance within broader human society. The performance’s encounter should produce an altered perception of oneself, and of who one is in relation to others. An audience should realize a newly expanded understanding of human potential as well as reconcile oneself with forces more powerful than any particular person. (5)

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askerden burning man e

Moody de askerden email atmis. Tum dusuncesi vatani vazife belli oluyor.
“Abi ben simdi sana Burdurdan sesleniyorum abi. Uniformamin icinde burada bolugumuzun internet kafesinden sana yaziyorum.
Burada hersey guzel gidiyor gelince sana bol bol anlatirim. Dinle; burada benim mangada bir cocuk, rug, var gecen sene gitmis ve bana yardimci olacak o yuzden plan yapmaya baslayalim seninle. Oncelikle yapmamiz gereken sey biletleri alip gidecek insan bulmak oraya.
Dinimdi ben burning manin web sitesine gittim oradan order edecektim ticketlari ama su anda Carol evde degil o yuzden mailim kaybollabilirsen banada order edermsin?
Bu arada bende bol bol burning man sitesine bakip butun yapmamiz gereken seyleri ogrenecegim.
It will be amazing.
ha birde burning manden sonra hemen Turkiyeye donecegim. Istanbulda yasayacagim ona gore mutlaka ne yap et benimle gel. ben rugu ikna ededip bizi bir kampa sokmasini isteyecegim. sende birseyler bul oki.
email me asap..”

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Persembe Shonna aradi. Bir teklifi oldugunu soyledi. Cuma sabahi erkenden Central Park a cikip kar altinda The Gates lerin fotograflarini cekmeyi teklif etti. Dur deyip Moody’yi aradim, o da gelecegini soyleyince Shonna’yi arayip plani kabul ettim.
Persembe aksami kar yagiyordu. Sabah 4 de cikip park’a gidip gunes cikmadan fotograflarimizi cekecektik.
Moody satti.
11’de yattim 4’de kalktim.Taksiye atlayip Shonna’ya gittim, west 72nd da Robert ile bulustuk. Park’a girdik. Dondurucu bir soguk. -5 derece en az.
The Gates projesi konusmayi seven niyorkirlarin en gozde konusu bugunlerde. sanat mi degilmi, ne gerek var vs. vs. Gun kadar acik olan teksek $20Milyon dolar tuttuklari. Burda biri ayni hesabi cok daha aza yapmis.
Saat 7 de 59th & Broadway de kahvalti ettikten sonra dagildik.

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housewarming party

duplex evlerde parti ayri guzel oluyormus. Moody’nin yeni evine tasinmasini kutlamak amaciyla ev arkadasi Carol bir parti verdi. Toplanip Williamsburg e gittik. Tiklim tiklim bir partiydi.  Partide ust kata fotograf studyosu kurduk gelen gecenlerin portlerelerini cekip profesyonel fotograci advisorumuz Shonna’nin tavsiyelerini alacaktik ama birkac ickiden sonra pek fotograf cekmez olduk.

Cok fazla icti herkes, ama partide mutlu bir hava vardi, kimse olay cikarmadan dagildi. Anca’nin icki duskunlugunu dizginlemekte benim Alcomate breathalizer in katkisi oldu tabi.





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doktora gittim. bogazimda birsey kalmis gibi hissediyordum bir haftadir. yutkun, yutkun gitmiyor. hos da bir duygu ama gereksiz. neyse doktor ilac verdi, 3 hafta onu kullanacakmisim. Mide ilaci… hemsirenin biri adimi cok begendi, “do you pronounce it as…” diye tum amerikalilarin ismimi soyledigi sekilde soyledi. “yes” dedim oyle okunur. yalan tabi. “ohh so good” dedi. neyse Cinli doktorun dediklerinin yarisini anlayip (acid reflux’um varmis, sounds cool) diger yarisina gulup kafa sallayip sabah mahmurlugu hala uzerimde hastaneden ciktim.

Posted in Uncategorized on November 12th, 2004 by turgan | | 0 Comments

cenneti de gördüm, cehennemi de.
öyle bir ask yasad?m ki,
tutkuyu da gördüm, pes etmeyi de.
baz?lar? seyrederken hayat? en önden,
kendime bir sahne buldum, oynad?m.
öyle bir rol vermisler ki,
okudum okudum anlamad?m.
kendi kendime konustum bazen evimde,
hem k?zd?m hem güldüm halime,
sonra dedim ki, “söz ver kendine”
denizleri seviyorsan, dalgalar? da seveceksin,
sevilmek istiyorsan, önce sevmeyi bileceksin,
uçmay? seviyorsan, dü?meyi de bileceksin.
korkarak yas?yorsan, sadece hayat? seyredersin..
öyle bir hayat yasad?m ki, son yolculuklar? erken tan?d?m
öyle çok degerliymis ki zaman,
hep acele etmem bundan, anlad?m…


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ileri 20’li yaslarin ruh halleri

“kendini ifade edecek bisi bul”
“ arayistayiz hepimiz”
“yasin gerektirdikleri”
“hepimiz olecegiz”
“nihan evlendi inanabiliyormusun?”

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